I know this might sound strange but I have a confession to make I don’t get along with gay men very well. I will be honest I really don’t.
The majority of the gay men I have met are materialistic, superficial, racist, sexist, ageist, anti lesbian, anti feminist, and also anti straight. Now I am not suggesting all gay men are like this.
One of the odd things I have learned is some gay men don’t like lesbians. I wonder why? I don’t have a problem with lesbians or lesbianism. I remember there used to be a lesbian bar called “Pope Joan” in Toronto and on Friday nights were the best!
One of the things I love about lesbian bars is the fact the DJ understands the audience likes a variety of music. The DJ at “Pope Joan” used to play hip hop, R&B, soul, funk, jazz, ballads, even country music once in a while.
I hear “Pope Joan” is out of business but that sucks I love that bar!
The gay bars in Toronto are boring because there is no diversity in the music. The DJ plays music for a Eurocentric crowd and the music is always dance or techno music. I hate techno music!
The best bars and clubs in Toronto are not gay bars anyway they are the straight clubs because at least the DJ will play different forms of music.
On New Years Day one acquaintance called me up out of the blue this gay man starts asking me what I did on New Years Eve. I start to talk and then he “hangs up” on me. I was shocked!
A couple people I know have said they find this particular gay man to be very superficial. In the past I defended him I said he’s a nice guy. I am not suggesting this gay man isn’t a good person. I will just say I do agree with the comments I have heard. I do feel this particular gay man is very “superficial”.
Isn’t that weird? Why would someone “hang up” on somebody and not even say “goodbye”? I decided to just move on and not talk to him. I don’t want to argue with this particular gay man because I feel I have nothing to say to him.
I just think he is petulant for hanging up on me for no reason. It doesn’t make any sense? Why call me at all if you are going to be rude?
However, I think there are only two gay men I have ever met in my entire life that I actually thought were nice men.
I think making “homosexuality” the center of your life is boring that’s just my personal opinion. I hope on this blog I convey the message that being “gay” is not my entire life.
In fact, I honestly believe being gay can be a lonely existence and that’s something I have been thinking about as I get older. I don’t want to have a child and I don’t like animals. I know there are gay men that buy toy dogs and dress them up as children but I don’t like dogs. The only pet I would own is probably a cat.
The issue of loneliness and homosexuality is something so many gay men don’t want to talk about. The gay culture is very youth orientated. Right now I may be “young” but I know as I get older I notice things. I notice how pretentious gay men can be. I notice how “age” is so important and this relates to gay male culture. I don’t see lesbians have this fixation on youth or how a person looks or beauty.
I am not sure if “being gay” is enough for me to be happy.
I am not sure “if” I want to be “gay” anymore. I hate Toronto’s gay scene it’s boring and dry. I hate the gay bars I rarely ever go to them. I hate the bathhouses seeing the same people over and over again. I hate everything about this city.
Why are so many gay black men in Toronto hiding? Or maybe the real question is where can I find them? I know gay black men and other gay men in the city of Toronto are “around”. I just don’t know “where” are they ?
I think I am in the wrong place. Obviously I want to make changes in my life and the only person that can change my life is me. I do believe I want to travel more to see America or England or something. I have only visited America few times and I was impressed there seems to be more to do there . There appears to be more black gay activism in the USA but maybe that relates to the safety in numbers?
I think Americans have a false impression that Canada is some multicultural utopia and this is just not true. Canadians can be very racist, sexist, homophobic, as well.
Canadians are just more hypocritical in relation to the issue of social injustice. Some Americans believe because same sex marriage is legal in Canada that the country is perfect for gays and I strongly disagree.
I don’t agree with gay marriage for myself. I am not against other gay people getting married. I just don’t believe I will ever marry another man. I know it’s not going to happen and so I try not to think about it. I don’t believe in all that “true love” bullshit.
Why would I marry a man that is going to cheat on me anyway? Everyone knows gay men are promiscuous and this is true it is not a stereotype. I think the issue of promiscuity relates to the topic of “sexual freedom”.
In gay male culture “sexual freedom” is the cornerstone of being “gay”. Gay men strongly believe “sexual freedom” is so important it overides everything. For instance, why do people think bathhouses are in business?
Gay men or bisexual men or “men that have sex with other men” across the world travel to bathhouses to explore this “sexual freedom”.
A lot of the people that visit gay bathhouse are also gay men that are in “relationships.” The ideology is this a lot of gay men believe in “open relationships” meaning that both partners agree that sleeping with someone else on the side is okay for a relationship to work. Is this really true though? Does this really work? I don’t know?
One gay guy I got along well with was a Guyanese gay man we were close friends since I was a teenager but we are no longer talking we just drifted apart. The Guyanese guy met a gay guy fell hard for the guy only this guy broke his heart. Although the last time I spoke to the Guyanese gay guy he says he is still friends with the toxic gay man.
He did a lot of stupid things for this guy for instance he got involved in shop lifting, theft, drugs. It was actually very sad to be honest.
Our friendship ended because I just couldn’t deal with all of his problems I did not know what to do anymore. I could not comprehend how such a smart young man would get involved in such nonsense. I did not understand why he would put himself in danger just “for” another man?
The good news is the last time I talked to the Guyanese gay guy was over a year ago and he appears to be getting his life together. He has a new lover and he is happy. He also is a very talented photographer.
The other gay man that I get along with is my close friend is South Asian we have been friends for over six years. He says I have “gay man trauma”. Maybe he’s right I don’t know?
What I do know is this most of the gay men I have met I am just not impressed with them. The gay men I have met are obsessed with sex, they are judgmental, rude, and obnoxious.
I also realize I don’t need to “just” be friends with homosexuals in order to enrich my life. I think my quandary is for a long time I felt that I placed too much importance on “being” friends with gay men.
I now understand through introspection that gay men are just like anyone else in society we have our own biases, prejudices, our own views. The only similarity is our sexual orientation.
I also admit I have biases about straight people. Now of course there are straight people that can be homophobic but I also am learning there are straight people that are actually nice people. I guess I just have to give them a chance.
Maybe I should apply the same philosophy to my biases I have with other gay men? I “want” to be more open minded about “gay men” maybe my bad experiences have clouded my judgment? Maybe I do need to become more open minded?
Freida Pinto isn’t the star of Slumdog Millionaire, but she’s the breakout star of the movie. Although, Dev Patel is the lead in Slumdog Millionaire, it is obvious the press and the public are fascinated with the beautiful Indian actress Freida Pinto.
I notice a lot of the discussion on the internet pertains to Freida’s appearance. Some people don’t believe Frieda is Indian, they believe she can pass for Hispanic or Latino.
Some folks feel Freida has a more “western” appearance.
I have also read comments that some people don’t believe Freida is Indian because her surname is “Pinto”.
I checked out IMDB.COM and Freida is definitely Indian she was born in India.
What do you think? Do you think Freida can make it in Hollywood or Bollywood or both?
I love Vivica A Fox she is a good actress she was excellent in “Set it Off”, “Soul Food”, “1-800 Missing”, and “Kill Bill”. The last couple of years Vivica seems to be making questionable choices. I just learned this week that Vivica is a promoting a psychic friends network. Now Vivica claims this is not true.
Now Vivica is set to host a new reality television show called “The Cougar”. It appears to me that Vivica is doing “anything” to stay in the spotlight. Last year, Vivica hosted a reality TV show. I don’t know who Vivica’s manager, is but what is girlfriend doing with her career? I notice Vivica has starred in a couple of straight to DVD movies.
Last year, Vivica was making a comeback, she guest starred on the HBO television show “Curb Your Enthusiasm”. Vivica received solid reviews from television critics for her performance. I sincerely hope Vivica will get a good acting role to demonstrate her acting talents again.
Roger Federer broke down in tears today at the Australian Open awards trophy ceremony. Roger once again lost to Rafael Nadal in a grand slam final. I believe it is time for Roger to see a sports psychologist he clearly needs some help with his confidence.
Roger had a breakdown today he was so inconsolable after this loss to Rafael Nadal. I feel since Roger is strong enough to cry he should be strong enough to get the professional help he desperately needs.
I think Roger should take a break from the game he needs to maybe return for the clay court season this year. I think he needs to think why does he put so much pressure on himself to win?
It is time for Roger to reach out for support he needs it. Roger is heartbroken he was unable to hide his true emotions today. It is hard for a tennis champion to admit another player is dominating him. I feel Roger’s breakdown today is proof it is killing him inside that he is unable to beat Nadal. Roger hasn’t beaten Rafael Nadal since November 2007 he has lost to Nadal five times in a row.
My heart breaks for Roger but this was Rafael’s moment to shine. Rafael was so kind to console Roger by hugging him despite the fact it was supposed to be his moment.
I have read some comments on the internet today and some people say Roger is a sore loser. I disagree I don’t feel Roger is a sore loser but I do believe he could of handled his emotions better.
Roger is a rare male athlete he shows his emotions all the time he cries when he wins and he cries when he loses. Some people say Roger is not masculine enough or man enough but I disagree. I believe it takes a strong man to admit the pressure of winning was too much. I feel Roger puts too much pressure on himself to break Pete Sampras record.
I am not a Nadal fan but even I must admit the attention of the awards ceremony should be on Rafael and not Roger since Rafael won the Australian Open.
I will admit Nadal is a lot better then I originally thought. Nadal is not just a clay court specialist he has proven he can win grand slam singles titles on all surfaces. Roger Federer has a real problem here and he needs to address what is he going to do about it?
Nadal is a solid talent and he is the number one player in the world. I still believe Roger will break Pete Sampras 14 grand slam singles title record. However, I also believe now that Rafael Nadal has the potential to also break Sampras record. Roger appears to have a mental block against Nadal.
Roger has an 11-0 record against all the other men in grand slam finals. However, Roger has a 2-5 record against Nadal in grand slam finals. I feel Roger needs to perhaps take a break from the game. Roger also needs a coach he needs to find someone that can help restore his confidence.
The interesting fact about Roger is that he is capable of beating Nadal he should of won this match but once again found a way to lose. Also, I feel the press are hyping up this rivalry a bit too much. Nadal has a 13-6 record against Roger how is this a rivalry? Nadal is clearly dominating Roger because he is mentally stronger then Roger.
I think Roger has to dig deep and look within himself he has to ask himself why he is so intimidated by Nadal? Roger has a superior serve then Nadal, he has a strong forehand, and he volleys better then Nadal. Roger is not utilizing his strengths enough. I also feel Roger is not attacking Rafael’s serve enough. The difference is Roger is so afraid of Nadal he won’t admit this but it is obvious.
It is time for Roger to seek a sports psychologist and get the professional help he needs to overcome Nadal. Maybe a sports psychologist can help him to deal with his emotions better as well.