Since I started working out in December 2007 everyone already knows I have lost over thirty pounds. Obviously I see a dramatic difference in my appearance but I am still not thrilled. I lost a lot of weight between December 2007 to April 2008 but now suddenly the weight isn’t coming off fast enough. What am I doing wrong? I read labels all the time at the supermarket.
I remember to count calories and write down everything I am eating. I recall reading a book and one of the most important aspects of weight loss is recording your food intake. Perhaps, I should stop going to restaurants? Maybe I need to return to an extremely strict diet? I also don’t eat at night anymore after 8:00pm.I don’t drink coffee I only drink tea. I do drink ginger ale maybe I need to give that up and just drink water all the time?
I have noticed since May 2008 I am only losing three pounds per month. What the hell is going on? I work out so hard I try to watch my food intake and I feel like I am stagnant. Does anyone know about any new nutrition books that I can buy? I have been thinking about laxatives do they work?
Does anyone know anything about the new fad diets or new ways to lose weight really fast? I am a bit unsatisfied. Everyone is telling me “Orville you look great” or “wow Orville you have lost a lot of weight.”
However, when I look in the mirror I only see my imperfections. I am getting better I can actually look at myself in the mirror and not want to smash the mirror into one million pieces. I can glance at my reflection and not feel like screaming at the top of my lungs. I recall late last year I hated looking in the mirror because I just wanted to cry. I even had ideas about suicidal ideation.
I simply hated my body this disgusting organism the extra flesh, the love handles, the excessive skin. I felt like vomiting when I looked in the mirror all I saw was ugliness and despair.
I feel like my face isn’t thin enough. I also don’t have rock hard abs, I don’t have the perfect body either. What is wrong with me? What am I doing wrong? I am only five feet eleven so I am average height. I also have broad shoulders as well.
I wonder what I would look like if I did weight 150 pounds again? I am currently around 205 pounds I might be little bit less because I refuse to go the scale anymore. I am so pissed off about this. Should I starve myself? Stop eating breakfast? Workout in the morning or evening? Any advice? I need help!!!
One thing I notice I don’t have that rail thin look the kind of look when I can actually see my ribs poking through my flesh. I remember ten years ago I was so skinny I weighed between 150 and 160 pounds. Now I am older and my metabolism has slowed down a bit.
I am starting to think maybe I need to go on another crash diet because I am committed to the intense exercise program I am on. Maybe I need to work out twice a day or something? I don’t know but I just want to be super skinny and really really thin. I think I am going to have to start eating rice cakes again, oatmeal, and really low calorie and low fat food. It is so hard for me to stick to a strict diet but I think this time I have to do it.